I love you

I've always loved you, actually. I remember things you wouldn't imagine, I have memories that I'm sure you've just earsed. But I can tell we've been together for all of our lives, and I can tell that I've needed you, though you didn't, and I've cared about you to a point you don't know. It all changed step by step. I realized how much I loved you and wanted you and desired you. I felt some dark deep inside when we would stop talking everyday, when you wouldn't be as sincere as I wished. You won't let me love you, you won't let me care. Now I can't stand you anymore; I can't stand you call me beautiful, I can't stand you looking at me, I can't stand when you laugh at my jokes and I can't stand your touch. I don't want your kisses anymore, your hugs, you smiles... But I either can't stand your pain, I don't want you to feel lonely, it hurts when you hurt... If you only let me love you, if you only let me be your friend.

KK

Emma

Making friends

I'll start saying that I've spent my whole life (18 years) with almost exactly the same people, for most of my kindergarden companions went to my school and high school. It's not like I've had the same friends since I was 1 year old and I've never met someone new, but still, getting in a place where I don't know anyone and having to stablish relationships is quite shocking for me. When I got in college, I was sure that I wanted to sare those moments with someone and not be alone. The first day I introduced myself to one girl with the most random thing, but it worked, and nowadays she is one of my best friends. I felt very proud of myself for breaking my own barriers and take the initiative. Anyway, today, after a year, I'm not the most popular, but I have my group of friends and that is all I need. I'm lucky to have my old friends next to my house, because I still miss them and I need them, but there they are, these new people,n this new company that I have won. I'm still the nerd one, the quite one, but I ave the respect of everyone and I'm happy with what I am.

KK

Emma

College: first impressions

College was one of my biggest dreams. I had been waiting this moment for so long, and when it started I had to accept reality. College is exciting, you get to do what you like or some close thing, but it is not all rainbow ponytails. College life is not exactly what I'd seen in movies or what I'd been told, but you can find other ways you couldn't have even imagined to enjoy your new life. Making friends, finding love, living new experiences, planing your future, getting good marks, growing up... there are a lot of things that you're supposed to do or you must do and it's not as easy as it seems just said. Reality sometimes doesn't fit what you've planned in your head, and I think that one of the most important things I have to learn is that to live happy you have to accept "different", because different is not what you expected, but it can be just as good or even better, and everything happens for a reason; life takes from us but then we're given more. I wanted to write a post about my experience on my first year of college, but there are too many things that I would like to talk about, so I'll comment them separately.

KK

Emma

This is a wicked life

Growing up, that was my dream when I was a child. Now, at 18, I finally have the chances I had wished before. Nevertheless, starting a new phase is never easy and realising all you need to change can be a little scary. Becoming an adult, getting into college, having the power to make your own decisions, there are plenty of exciting experiences for me from now on, but as everything in this life they don't come for free. So here I am, nervous and expectant, impatient and terrified, ready to enjoy every moment, take every opputunity and work for my dreams, but also to fight obstacles, deal with loss and mature, as the strong independent woman I wish I'll be someday, only hoping I can make my way to happiness, simply happiness.

KK

Emma